berthy's world

This is for the people

Who do understand

That it's all about

Give and take and what you make

You'll get in the end

This is for the ladies

Who don't give a damn

When the people say: "Paint your face and keep your grace and stand by your man"

This is for the fellas

Who do understand

It ain't all about

Sex and drugs and money sucks

If you only pretend

And when the lights go out today

I hope that you all get into what I say

There's nothing greater than human love

It is brought by nature or send from up above

December, 26 2009

Well..akhirnya aq menyadari bhwa ini tak sebaik yg kukira…

Ku rasa aq tlah kelewatan batas dan ini semua malah berbalik padaku…

Setiap kata2 negatif entah itu hanya merupakan lelucon ternyata dapat merobek luka yg kukira tlah sembuh itu…

Yah..aq terluka karna smuanya bukan karena perktaan mereka tpi krna kenyataan bhwa aq tdklah sebaik dan sespecial yg aq kira… byk org mengtakan dan aq sering mmbca di buku2 kepribadian bhwa qta smua adalah org2 yg special… tpi yg kuliat lain adanya… apa aq tlah membuat ksalahan lagi sperti yg slalu aq lakukan berharap pada org yg salah…

Aq hrs realistis….mungkin itulah pelajaran yg kudapat dari natal taun ini….

Aq hrs realitis dgn keadaan mereka… keadaan dia…. Dan terlebih penting aq hrs realistis dgn diriku sndri…

Aq hrs realisitis dgn realita yg ada…

Aq ttp percya pada apa yg disebut org cinta… aq percaya bhwa cinta dpt membawa sebuah kebahagiaan.. karena cinta sendiri adalah kebahagiaan…tpi spertinya kebahagiaan itu takkan pernah menjadi milikku…

Kesepian dan kehampaan mungkin adalah milikku… terlalu sering aq merasakannya… awalnya memang terasa sangat sakit..tpi entahlah tiba2 aq merasa nyaman dgn rasa itu.. bahkan aq kini mengingikannya..

Aq malah bersyukur rasa sepi dan hampa itu ada… apa ini semua karena aq trlalu sering mengalaminya?? Bahkan ditengah keramaian sekalipun… aq slalu merasa bahwa ada sesuatu dari diriku yang tak lengkap, hilang, hampa dan tak kembali..sesuatu yg aq sndripun tak tau itu apa???

Akhirnya yg bisa kulakukan adalah bersyukur kepada Tuhan untuk semuanya termasuk rasa sepi dan hampa ini… aq tak mau melukai keluargaku. Saudaraku, teman2ku, dan mereka yg mencintai aq ( entah ada atau tidak ada ) dan terlebih penting aq tidak mau melukai Tuhanku..

Aq percaya setiap awal pasti ada akhir…

Tapi yang takkan pernah kutau bagaimanakah akhir dari rasa kesepian dan kehampaan ini???

Sebuah kehidupan yang baru dan lebih baik ataukah sebuah titik akhir yang indah???

Entahlah….

Hug and kisses….

Bey…

yeayy.... i have a new layout blog, and it's all about valentine's day.. so i would kike to say that for a couple of days i'm gonna write bout love... yeah..about love..something beautiful in this world.
and about my days..i'm still working and learning bout my new job, it's not easy but i really try the best of me!
i also met another new guy, and i'm still waiting for my soulmate. i do believe in happilly ever after.
I also still waiting of jessica simpson's new reality show "The Price Of Beauty". damn! i love this girl! own your beauty! You are Worthy and Beautiful.

well..this is from jessica simpson - i belong to me...
there's a lot of stories behind this song for me...
and i would like to share this song to all of u...
this song taken from her " a public affair " album...
it really inspire me and keeps me going through my hardest day...
hope u can feel it too...
and this song goes...

I belong to me...

It's not that I don't wanna share my life with you baby
It's just that I'm the one I need to be true to baby
And I won't give up me to be part of you
It's not that I don't wanna have you in my life baby
It's just you gotta know that it's got to be right baby
Before I open up my heart to you

I don't need somebody to complete me
I complete myself
Nobody's got to belong to somebody else

I belong to me
I don't belong to you
My heart is my possession
I'll be my own reflection
I belong to me
I'm one not half of two
And if you're gonna love me
You should know this baby
I belong to me

I gotta let you know before I let you in, baby
That who I am is not about who I am with, baby
That don't mean I don't wanna be here with you
I do

I don't need somebody to complete me
I want you to know
I'll give up my love but I'm not giving up my soul

Love don't mean changing who you are to be
Who somebody wants you to be
Nobody's got to belong to nobody

just realize this is my first blog in a new year.. and just like ussually in a new year,most people keep talking bout their resolution in this new year.. and how about you? did u have any resolution? well, i think one of my new resolutions are let your heart win. yup..just let your heart win.. u can use ur mind but remember to ask ur heart, listen to the voice within you.. there will be a lot of people who would kill to see u fall, so just keep your head up and listen to the voice within,let your heart win.. may love be with u.. xoxo ~ bey